I think it's amazing how sweet my little girl is. Even when she is shrieking (her newest talent), poopie and overtired, she still is the sweetest little girl in my eyes.
Becoming a mom has been my greatest joy...but it's also been one of my biggest challenges. Not because of the morning sickness, sleepless nights or colicky screaming but because I am the daughter of a borderline mother. One days when I would lose my patience with my precious angel, I would start crying afterward wondering if I would continue the cycle of abuse. Or days when my daughter was doing something sweet/cute/funny and I would want to share it with someone whom I could talk with. On days, when my mother-in-law is inappropriate and I needed a shoulder to cry on. Those have been the most challenging days since becoming a mom. I think one of the worst things in the world is for a girl to grow up with an emotionally neglectful/abusive mom.
I don't have a mom; not really anyways. Now my daughter doesn't have a grandma. When does the pain end?
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